I was diagnosed with chronic depression and GAD (generalised anxiety disorder) in early 2010. I refused medication straight away, having heard so many negative connotations about antidepressants. I was offered therapy, but was told there could be up to a six-month waiting list. I also declined. Eventually, my depressive states subsided a little and I celebrated a little too early, having thought I’d finally killed off the black dog. However, around 2014, I realised my dog was here to stay.
You see the accounts on Instagram. The perfect ones, who are entirely ‘zero waste’ or who post about being able to fit their entire year’s waste in a jar. Whilst inspiring, these accounts and posts can be damaging. I’ve been there and played the ‘comparing-myself-to-this-person’s-amazing-life-and-now-everything-is-horrible’ game several times over. In fact, I still do. Nearly … Continue reading mental health VS eco-sustainability
The elephant has been suffocating you for years. So many years that stretch into a distant path where every brick seems irrelevant, but yet the whole long and winding road is so pertinent at this moment. Why are you choosing now to leave? Why is the elephant choosing now to torment you to such a … Continue reading The Elephant Part II
Depression is like having a huge elephant permanently living in your front room. It doesn’t give you a lot of space to live, so you have to squeeze around it as best you can. You’re constantly ducking and diving around the elephant to get to where you need to be, sometimes taking hits from flapping … Continue reading The Elephant Metaphor
So, here’s when Sarah’s Headspace gets a little more up close and personal... These are my diary entries for the past two weeks while I’ve been volunteering at Moonacre Sanctuary in Cyprus. They showcase the good, the bad and the ugly of rescue life, and my reaction to it all. I’ve tried to be as … Continue reading The Dog Diaries – 2 Weeks at Moonacre Sanctuary
Since October last year, I bugged my boyfriend to come with me on a volunteering holiday - and for no other reason than to help dogs in need, and a story to tell for years to come. Of course, he very quickly caved (back story: we both own two gorgeous dogs who are both rescues!) … Continue reading Sarah’s Next Adventure – Volunteering With Dogs Abroad!
8 dates, 8 cities, 2 weeks and sharing a van with 5 guys...
I never really thought I was cut out to be an artist within the music industry, or work as a freelancer, and now I’ve suddenly become both...
Even when I list what and who I have in my life, it still sometimes doesn't feel real. Like I've been living a lie for the past 24 years.
Depression,
How do you propel me so deep into your despair that no amount of embraces from my partner can relieve my sobbing?
Sarah's Headspace 